There you go, you’re only four
illuminating your back porch.
You’re sitting on a hollow horse.
Goddamn, you know what it’s like to be.
I’m tangled up inside these knots.
The exit wound, my heavy thoughts.
I think too much of what I got
and where I’d be if it were lost.
I’d lose my head if not attached.
I’d lose it had you not come back.
You always do, and just like that
I’m ready to be happy again.
I found a love with bitterness
that dissolved into tenderness.
I never thought things would turn out like this
but now I know what it’s like to be.
We sat outside with cigarettes
laughing off what most forget.
I remember every thing we did
and you remember all that is key
And on the couch our thoughts surround
where we might be long after now
and if things end up turning out
how I imagine them I’d be so proud.
My past can’t be defined by sweet.
more a fix that comes unnaturally.
Such dirty things to keep me clean.
A stress ball and a magazine’s
just scraps and crumbs that change nothing
when love walks out and you’re hungry.
Those home movies that you can’t see.
You try so hard to sneak a peak.
Your youth defines your memory
and yours to me is every thing
so someday I’ll rob back your dreams.
Together we’ll learn how to be
and honey, you’ll feel so damn free.
Just picture living your life with me.
You’re the words that I nurse
In my room and rehearse
until finally, the melody’s perfect.
To a tune my friend writes
like he’s inside my mind
with the chords that play off my emotions.
Though my voice isn’t soft
with headphones you’ll get lost
in my buried sense of direction.
From bitter to sweet
to so sad your eyes weep
you will never quite get where I’m going,
but you’ll buckle up while I drive both of us
down a road while the car plays this album.
And you’ll find you’re inside every track that I write
and the car will then become a current.
We will row with the way our eyes pave what our face
makes up what we say while no words fall in place
cause the feeling’s too great and there’s not a too late
cause five years is a long time,
but we finally did it right
and I’ve got confidence you always will be mine.
There’s longevity in differing
that which what we want from what we need
from love and lust tied at the seams.
It sends drips of sweat filled up with greed
till she becomes our property.
I’m so in love dishonestly.
Hands in my face, I’m sitting down.
I’ll see you when your smiles found
cause I can’t look at you right now.
I’m too ashamed and far too proud.
We used to live by just the truth
then we grew up and walked into
a life we live we never knew
would become us, no we’d argue
that we were different from the rest
but fuck this if we’re at our best
and in our prime in life’s design
how the fuck am I in God’s eye?
Now we smoke to clear our worried heads.
If you two fucked I swear to God, you’re dead
and I can promise you that’s not some threat
You’re old enough to grow up, don’t forget
Don’t kid yourself we’re not just kids,
we’re much more than a movie script.
Or a bible verse that makes no sense
Word-of-mouth altered to shit
till all that’s real is paper thin
broken in half by selfish grins
I’m an intern in the love I give,
no never paid in compliments.
I just do my job to learn from it
but I’ve learned not to give a shit
and that’s not why I got into this,
I need a new occupation.
I’m better than those who’ve made it
and I deserve what I can’t get.
Now if someone dies at least I live
and breaking hearts sends head rushes
It makes me re think what I need,
if wanting something’s the same thing.
thus enters in longevity.
Is love just lust but more greedy?
I don’t know a God damn thing
Fuck, look at what you did to me, honey.
Your crooked smile speaks and it cries into me
like I’m all that there is even though there’s nothing
and when these buildings fall down and the flood rushes in
you will stand in the street eyes closed ready to swim
There’s no song that could treat all the bad thoughts you think.
There’s no boy you could meet who could sweep you off your feet.
You just suffer through this hunger and never get clean.
You say love’s a language you forgot how to speak
And as hard as you try you can no longer dream
cause your mind has drained all strands of ideals happy.
You wear the same clothes and hardly wash your hair.
I guess that you used to but now you don’t care.
Yeah, you used to try hard to look cute and prepared
for the heartbreak you thought would never be there.
Still your broken heart sings and it taps into me
like I’m all that there is, that perfect melody
and when these buildings fall down and the flood rushes in
you will stand in the street eyes closed ready to drown.
I’ll be there for you when you are fed lies
I’ll hold your hand each time you wanna cry.
I’ll be the medicine you take to sleep at night.
I’ll be the closest thing there is that you could find.
I’ll drive to you just so you’re not alone.
We’ll watch TV, eat food, drink and get stoned.
I’ll make you forget worries you hold close.
I’ll be the trust you thought you’d never know.
I’ll be there for you when you hit the ground.
I’ll pick you up and never let you down.
Show you images with words what life’s about.
If this is all a test I’ll be your cheat sheet now.
I’ll be the smile that’s so wide it hurts your cheeks.
I’ll be the wishing star that sees you to your dreams.
I’ll be the thought inside your head while your asleep.
I’ll be the dream you can’t recall cause it’s too sweet.
I’ll be the home run swing you knock out of the park.
I’ll be the lighter used to get through what is dark.
I’ll be the only one who understands it’s hard.
I’ll be the only one who understands your heart.
I’ll be the radio that plays your favorite songs.
I’ll be the song you just can’t help but sing along.
I’ll be the voice inside your head when things go wrong
telling you you’re fine, let go, be strong
Cause I know all the places you have been
and I know those certain feelings that you get
and I know all those bottled up secrets
that you don’t even feed me with a hint.
Your eyes give you away…
Your eyes give you away.
Girl, does it help to drink alone?
I thought you hated the taste of Merlot.
I thought hope was for the homeless
and dreams were meant for when you’re stoned.
Things aren’t the way I wanted any of this to be.
No this isn’t how I wanted you to fall for me.
Bite your lip at me again and we’ll have a problem.
You get me and I hate it cause you know all the secrets.
The ones none of my songs know…
I think I’ll just try drinking alone.
Do you have the shivers yet? Would a kiss lead to regret?
If I told you all those things I used to pretend to forget.
Would that change anything, because those things run pretty deep.
Would that mean anything cause those things should mean every thing.
Girl, does it help to die alone?
Cause heart break heals too slow.
I thought you fucking hated love?
I thought you fucking hated me.
If it’s easier for us I say let’s jog down separate paths.
I can take a silent shower, you can take a quiet bath.
We’ll wash ourselves of all this and in time we will both laugh
until we’re both drinking alone inside our little homes
with our significant others that sleep inside the same room,
but not inside our souls.
When you’re all alone and you bite on your shirt
till your teeth start to hurt I’ll make whatever broke work
and I’ll kiss your ear and make it pop as your tears
disappear with your fears and worries you keep near.
You learn nothing from them. Just cross pain off your list
cause once you’ve been through it it should be done with.
she said,
“If you want me gone and out of your arms
I’ll leave without asking what I did wrong
cause you are the heart that feels every song
that brings to light love in what’s going on
and I don’t deserve you, wanna know how come?
Cause you are what any and all girls should want”
So I don’t think she knows that her eyes tend to glow
and when she walks she floats and turns sidewalk to gold
and warms me when I’m cold, God her laugh keeps me sold.
I don’t want you to go, don’t let go honey no
cause you’re beautifully calm and cliche as a rose
and when it comes down to it that’s what I love the most.
You paint the stars in on featureless skies
and you change the outline of futureless lives.
If perfect existed, honey you missed it
but I don’t want perfect,
I only want you, kid.
Comparing our feelings, I’m small town, you’re city
but that doesn’t mean we can’t live somewhere between
the suburb of one and rural of the other.
It takes two to last, girl we could change together
There are so many boys that wish you’d turn them into
the men they could be if you’d just let them have you.
I don’t understand why you keep me around to
have, hold and kiss like I’m the best you could do.
You’re an internal moral with an external smile.
You’re as perfect as it gets without being God’s child.
We were so lost in this game we called life for a while
till we realized we’re dead walking barefoot on the nile.
You paint the stars in on featureless skies
and you change the outline of futureless lives.
If perfect existed then honey, you missed it
but I don’t want perfect, I only want you.
In this warm bed you’re cold but with my arm there you know
this is the routine that you’re gonna live with.
You kiss my head with a nod that suggests
you know nothing in this world is perfect.
But with your absence of God comes some sense in your thought
therefore you’ve grown to love and accept it.
We walked a road we hardly even know
full of strangers that want to live different.
I know it made you sad and grateful for what you have
as you smiled a frown that asked questions.
And when it rained on us we both huddled together,
a soaking wet fit of forever.
It was then that I knew as true as the sky’s blue
that nothing else but us has to matter.
See, you hated Punk rock before it was cool to
and you whispered nothings when somethings were sposed to’s
and you see the beauty in every ugly truth
and you dream of love in the nightmares you shake to
and honey, I love it, baby girl I love you..
You turned the flash on and took pictures of my yawn.
You said “Honey, you bring to life colors
I never knew mattered like pretty disasters
we drive by without wonder.”I didn’t know what you meant but it meant every thingcause you cried with your head on my shoulder.
See, you hated prom while most girls stood in lawns
taking pictures with boys they thought they loved
and when you were sprung with that phrase most girls want
you’d reply with a bittersweet ‘grow up’.
you look so weak like you accept defeat
and when I call you mine, girl you no longer think
it’s just degrading like you’re my property
No, you no longer read into things bitterly.
You accept you’re in love without taking it rough
I remain in your trust and it makes sense enough.
I mean we’re both old enough for it to be more than a rub,A stupid three letter phrase that gets used way too much
